Yesterday was my 29th birthday. I really don't know how I feel about it. Twenty-nine is different than I expected. I don't hate it . . . but I'm still trying to figure out what it means. I feel old in some regards . . . my aches and pains, my fatigue, my desire to stay home instead of go out. In other aspects I don't feel old enough to be 29. I don't have a put-together-life that I see many people have when they are this age. I don't own a home, or have kids, or a great career. I don't feel old enough to be one year away from 30.
I know I probably have skewed ideas of what being 29 is suppose to look like. Growing up it seemed like it was the magical age. After all, everyone older than 29 still said they were 29-years-old. . . mostly woman that clearly were not! I have memories of my grandma telling me she was 29 years old, which I knew wasn't right because my mom was older than that! True age was kept a secret and 29 was the age people desired to be . . . and stay.
I've been joking around saying that I had my "first 29th Birthday." As in I too, will stay 29 forever!
There are a lot of things I am looking forward to this year, and that makes me think 29 will be a great year. We are traveling to Europe next month, hoping to experience places like Italy, The Netherlands, France and England.
I'm also looking forward to more opportunities to take photographs and families and babies. Chris bought me a tripod for my camera which I am really excited to use! (He was really listening to me all those times I said, "Man, I wish I had a tripod for this!") After church on Sunday I even put on my "brave face" and asked a few new parents if I could take their photos sometime! (Ah, I'm nervous!) I'm really excited for these opportunities as this is something I think about doing all the time.
Anyway, I spent my birthday watching The Dark Knight Rises at the IMAX (would highly recommend it!) and eating dinner with my favorite guy. I was blessed by a stack of mail that arrived on Saturday which I opened over breakfast on Sunday, and had a few lovely phone chats with my family. It was a great birthday!